As I sat at the coffee bar...

So as I sat at the coffee bar with a friend of mine,

we delved into the topic of what we should do in life

and how to approach it.

My friend had no idea what to do, naturally because the average person

in college tends to jump from idea to idea, following the lines of practicability

that follows their abilities and interests.

My friend was talking about going into teaching.

I kinda got this look on my face like, "Are you crazy?"

This kid is always outside and doing epic shit, there is no

way there would be a content fiber in his body by being stuck in a classroom,

teaching the guidelines of mediocrity of society in a secondary education.

So we kinda went into the topic of sciences because we have a chemistry class together,

and he said he wasn't into the science because you're stuck in a lab and you have to memorize

a ton of shiz....ya da ya da ya da.....

Then I said, "Well geology isn't memorization. It's more like seeing and feeling and understanding."

Then he kinda got this look like really? Wow!

and so he was inspired to go more into the Adventure Education major instead

because that's what he truly loves to do.

After that conversation, I felt like I helped him do something, helped unlock a little bit of the confusing reality of what life is and where it' take you.

Me, I just thank the universe and say GO!

It's a wobbly world of limbo out there,

but how do you know when you are in limbo versus reality.

Till next time,

My love to you,

Miss K.D.

Finding Nemo: First Day of school

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! I love Fort Lewis College and I am so excited for a new year here!!! Most amazing place on earth!!

Outside the Apparatus of Mediocrity...

Over the last 12 months,

I have been learning more and more about myself.

I have been learning more about giving off beautiful energy as well as looking beautiful.

I have been learning about what I really want out of life.

I have been discovering that I am truly an amazing person and that I am intelligent.

L E A R N

I have learned that I am a caring and loving person. I love spreading the message about love and the universe to everyone that I have met or will meet. Love is not just about finding that other person, your other half. You have to love yourself and the world before you can share that love with someone else. That was the hardest part for me to learn because I have always thought that in order to learn about love, you would have to first share that with someone else. Totally wrong!!!! I had to fall in love with myself and I had to fall in love with the Universe. Now, I share that Love with someone who is the same exact way. I love that we love ourselves but also love each other. This is a kind of Love that I have never thought was possible but now that I see that it is possible I have never been happier. Also, if Kirk and I were to separate at some point, I know we would both be fine because Love is not defined through another person. I do not follow that apparatus of mediocrity in order to learn and Love.

E N E R G Y

There is so much more to looking beautiful physically. Energy is a form of subliminal beauty that you can feel as well as see. Through learning I have also been able to transform my physical aspects into energy that make me enjoyable to be around. When people feel that beautiful energy, it's so intoxicating that they don't ever want to let go. I cannot tell you how to unlock your beautiful energy because that is a journey for you. You will know when you have found that energy. When you find that energy, you are then worthy to Love and share that love with someone.

L I F E

What I want out of Life is not complicated. I want to find the world not see. I want to find beauty in all things. I want to learn as much as I can till my brain explodes!! I never want to stop moving!!! I never want to settle! I found someone of this Earth who wants to accomplish the same as I do and we are going to do it together, but I would still do it alone if I had not found Kirk. My journey starts in March when I move to New Zealand alone and while Kirk moves to Germany. We will be on opposite ends of the world but we will still be loving, living, and finding the world.

D I S C O V E R

I had something happen to me a year ago that hurt, confused, and twisted me. I was devastated and depressed. Things changed for me though, I was invited to go dancing at a bar. Now two-stepping to country music with a bunch of cowboys and tourists is not my thing but I learned so much in just 3 hours of being at that bar. I learned that 1) There are PLENTY of fish in the sea 2) I was beautiful (since there was not one dance that I sat out on) 3) I define my happiness

I let myself expand and be happy after that night. I flirted with people in my lectures and when I walked around campus. I went out on casual dates. I went hiking by myself. I went skiing with my girls. I allowed myself to go on adventures and to just be happy all by myself! Discovering is how I learned about my energy exapnsion and how I truly learned all together. After discovering, I never let anyone put my intelligence down or control me or let anyone do anything that made me unhappy. Those kind of people have been wiped from my life. And with discovering, I discovered Kirk. Kirk is my bestfriend and the love of my life that I never thought I'd find this early in my life. Discovering is the most powerful thing that mankind has within its possession, and that has been proven time and time again in history. Do not settle but discover!

I write this message to inspire and to ignite thought.

Go on your adventure and find Love.

Share that Love when you are worthy.

Be immortal and never fear

because you

are worthy of being

outside the apparatus of mediocrity.

me and then M E

Yesterday,

I was just a girl who cared way too much about the little things.
I would get mad, I would throw a bitch fit over stupid things!
And I thought, why?
This isn't me. This isn't the girl I want to be.
I want to be the woman that is free and is content with anything that is thrown at me, and if I discover something I am not content with, then I will work until that something is perfect.

So...

I have gone after the things that make me happy.

And it has turned into my A D V E N T U R E

but because of this adventure I have decided to go on,
you no longer claim the right to actually know me.
You know the memory of me, but not M E.
But the thing is, you cannot be in love with a memory because it will never exist again.
I do not believe many of my "former" friends really grasp that concept...yet[hopefully].
Most are actually still stuck in that "high school" mindset and still hang onto the old values of drama and lust[not love but lust].
So many people are stuck in the mindset of finding their "prince charming" or their "damsel in distress" and believe in that forever after. Do you really think you are going to find that person when you are 17 years old, have no idea what you want out of life, and still have a ton of growing up to do for yourself?
It's a fabulous feeling to love someone, to have someone there, and to just have that feeling of security.
The thing is though, you forget about yourself. You forget about M E.
M E is the most important person.
And in discovering M E, you cannot hang onto that sense of security.
You have to go out, take risks, and fall on your face a million times.
You need to step aside from the box and ask. does this make M E happy?
Is what I am doing defining what I want M E to be?
You can't include that "prince charming" or that "damsel in distress"in your life plans because it just screws up with the M E factor.
Get it?

Today,

I thank the Universe everyday for what I have been blessed with.

I am in Love with myself, I could not have said that yesterday.

I am in such a fun relationship with someone who shares the same yearning for

that A D V E N T U R E.

But the thing is,

we have our own seperate A D V E N T U R Es to attend to.

For instance,

he needs to go skiing
I need to go excavating for minerals and such.

So, I am all about telling him,

"OK go do your thing. I'll do my thing. And I'll see you in a couple of days."

Also,

He's going to a business school in Germany next January
and
I am going to New Zealand to study Petrology.

Who knows where things with "us" will go but that's not what's most important to him and that is not what's most important to M E.
It's life.

It's so fabulously fun to be so carefree.
I think in past relationships,
they failed because we forgot how to have fun with each other.
Forgot about laughing and playing.
And simply forgot M E.

But that's what this
A D V E N T U R E
is all about.

You live. You learn. and eventually you decide to L O V E.

There's a difference between the me of yesterday
and the
M E of today.

It's all a fabulously epic A D V E N T U R E from here.

XOXO,
K.D. Cox

Today...

Today…

Smiling is a rare sight

In a world where the sun is not so bright

And yet

I am expected to

Follow an apparatus of mediocrity

As I listen to the "promises of democracy:

& live the Dream of America.

I walk upon the sidewalks of "time"

Where there was once a "solid rock of brotherhood."

And they were the ones who made this

Life possible, they the revolutionaries.

Blood, sweat, and tears have gone

Into these sidewalks of "time"

But no one stops to appreciate

Or see that.

Instead,

We continue on our walk to work,

Or home, or wherever we are going

Without even glancing at the "time

And we then huddle in our

Cubicles of weakness & comfort.