Interaction...

Someone asked me today if seeing people in love made me mad or sad?

I thought about it.

In a way yes, I am envious but I still didn't feel the emotions of madness or sadness.

I thought some more about.

And in a way, it makes me happy to see it.

I love to see Love

I especially love to see it between two people

who are absolutely head over heels in love with each other.

It's like a warmth a illuminates off love.

It fills my heart with happiness and beauty.

It reminds me of what I have had

and what I Have

Seeing the interaction of love between two beings

just reminds me of the beautiful things in life.

It makes me smile

laugh

and

cry

So why be mad or sad if you see someone who is in love?

I think it's kind of a stupid question to be honest. The question should be

Why aren't you happy when you seen people in love?

Of course, when you think about

in that way

You may answer that you have recently broken up with a boyfriend, or a girlfriend.

Or that you have never had a boyfriend/girlfriends and you overly jealous of that.

Or that you miss your significant other because he or she is not around at the moment.

I just take it as an opportunity to feel good. To feel happy. To find beauty.

Because I know I am loved.

I may not have a young gentleman interest next to me.

I may not be able to hold someone's hand.

But I know. He's out there. I know. I have people out there who love me.

I'm just a butterfly that has fallen once, but has taken flight again.

And I am determined to never let someone flick me down ever again.

I have love.

Already Gone

I can't state this any plainer. I heard this song and it perfectly describes how I feel.

Already Gone- Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone...

you know this is about you...

and you know

I will always love you....

I'm sorry I can't Just be friends....

My Beauty

I enjoy finding the beauty in the little things that surround my life.

I love discovering beauty

in a lightbulb

on the bark of a tree

in the clouds that surround a sunset

in the music I listen to as I dream

on the wings of a butterfly

in the love I feel

Beauty makes the soul

realize that there is a reason for life

a reason to keep going

even when life doesn't seem all that grand

It brings about emotions

happiness

sorrow

elation

ease

Beauty is what illuminates a smile

Beauty is what composes art

Beauty is what brings about love

It is such a powerful thing

I know

that every person

who walks upon this dirty Earth

is Beautiful

For a long time,

I never found myself to be one

that was capable of being beautiful.

I never accepted myself

I was never comfortable with myself

People have been telling me all my life that

I am beautiful

and that I should just accept it

but I refused.

Beautiful people did things with their lives

Beautiful people are successful

Beautiful people have love in their lives

But now

it's different

It's like I woke

up today

without make-up

without my hair glammed up

and I looked at myself

and I thought about what and who I am

and realized

I am one of those beautful people.

I finally am happy with myself.

Everyone out there is beautiful

and I was so stupid to think that I wasn't a part of that.

And now,

I love to find beauty in the little things

because

life is too short to leave beauty

unnoticed