Finding Nemo: First Day of school

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! I love Fort Lewis College and I am so excited for a new year here!!! Most amazing place on earth!!

Outside the Apparatus of Mediocrity...

Over the last 12 months,

I have been learning more and more about myself.

I have been learning more about giving off beautiful energy as well as looking beautiful.

I have been learning about what I really want out of life.

I have been discovering that I am truly an amazing person and that I am intelligent.

L E A R N

I have learned that I am a caring and loving person. I love spreading the message about love and the universe to everyone that I have met or will meet. Love is not just about finding that other person, your other half. You have to love yourself and the world before you can share that love with someone else. That was the hardest part for me to learn because I have always thought that in order to learn about love, you would have to first share that with someone else. Totally wrong!!!! I had to fall in love with myself and I had to fall in love with the Universe. Now, I share that Love with someone who is the same exact way. I love that we love ourselves but also love each other. This is a kind of Love that I have never thought was possible but now that I see that it is possible I have never been happier. Also, if Kirk and I were to separate at some point, I know we would both be fine because Love is not defined through another person. I do not follow that apparatus of mediocrity in order to learn and Love.

E N E R G Y

There is so much more to looking beautiful physically. Energy is a form of subliminal beauty that you can feel as well as see. Through learning I have also been able to transform my physical aspects into energy that make me enjoyable to be around. When people feel that beautiful energy, it's so intoxicating that they don't ever want to let go. I cannot tell you how to unlock your beautiful energy because that is a journey for you. You will know when you have found that energy. When you find that energy, you are then worthy to Love and share that love with someone.

L I F E

What I want out of Life is not complicated. I want to find the world not see. I want to find beauty in all things. I want to learn as much as I can till my brain explodes!! I never want to stop moving!!! I never want to settle! I found someone of this Earth who wants to accomplish the same as I do and we are going to do it together, but I would still do it alone if I had not found Kirk. My journey starts in March when I move to New Zealand alone and while Kirk moves to Germany. We will be on opposite ends of the world but we will still be loving, living, and finding the world.

D I S C O V E R

I had something happen to me a year ago that hurt, confused, and twisted me. I was devastated and depressed. Things changed for me though, I was invited to go dancing at a bar. Now two-stepping to country music with a bunch of cowboys and tourists is not my thing but I learned so much in just 3 hours of being at that bar. I learned that 1) There are PLENTY of fish in the sea 2) I was beautiful (since there was not one dance that I sat out on) 3) I define my happiness

I let myself expand and be happy after that night. I flirted with people in my lectures and when I walked around campus. I went out on casual dates. I went hiking by myself. I went skiing with my girls. I allowed myself to go on adventures and to just be happy all by myself! Discovering is how I learned about my energy exapnsion and how I truly learned all together. After discovering, I never let anyone put my intelligence down or control me or let anyone do anything that made me unhappy. Those kind of people have been wiped from my life. And with discovering, I discovered Kirk. Kirk is my bestfriend and the love of my life that I never thought I'd find this early in my life. Discovering is the most powerful thing that mankind has within its possession, and that has been proven time and time again in history. Do not settle but discover!

I write this message to inspire and to ignite thought.

Go on your adventure and find Love.

Share that Love when you are worthy.

Be immortal and never fear

because you

are worthy of being

outside the apparatus of mediocrity.